August 16, 2009
hahx
i just came back home..
my cousins gave me a treat cause
tmrw i will be gettin myself admitted for my open head surgery..
even though they laugh n make me happy.
i can c tat they are actually soo scared.
N infront of me they act like they are garang,
but wen they like go out for a smoke break,
i see them havin the fear tat they might loose me..
especially suja akka..
haiz..
im like super close to them.
they mean the world to me..
i have always tried my best at entertainin them n not showin them tat i am also scared
but wen i see close ones worry abt me,
i get very weak..
haiz..
wad ever it is.
if i die durin this operation also,
i will be happy tat i did spend one of my last moments enjoyin wid them
N makin them happy..
i need to sleep now..
tmrw i wanna go home early n spend some time with my parents..
especially my mum cause i LOVE her loads.
she is worried sick abt me..
no matter how many times i tell her not to worry n not to think abt it.
she still does it..
now to think of it..
i always will get irritated n start scoldin her wen she shows her sad face..
but wad to do..
maybe tatz wad they call MOTHERS LOVE
hmmmm
tatz all la..
i cant even like keep my eyes open properly..
haiz.
NITE NITEZ!!!
